ok, so i've realised it all...

Becoming whom I really should be -
   How God created me!!

Well to be honest, I'm sitting (here) kinda in 'the corner'. There's a real bright light to the left (in front) of me, and each time someone walks past, they reflect the brIght light...
To the right of me is a square table covered in a red plastic table 'cloth' - it has 3 side-plates on it and one is mine with cake on it.
This chair is getting hard - it IS hard, and black...

So back to what I realised.
I keep wanting to be at the stage in my life where I'm free, but there is ALWAYS something keeping me from freedom.
If I don't STOP everything in its tracks then I will always have something keeping me back.

I have also come to realise what love is - NO, there is not only ONE definition, but many, and I must thank a good friend for helping me understand what love is.
It is rather comical, but not funny, how my lesson came about - I'll only say that I asked my friend what they thought love is.

I'm gonna try explain it:
love is, that yearning for the one loved.
The feeling of something missing - I'm trying, but much of the readers may get lost..
The love (I speak about) is Godly, so if you don't really know Jesus...
That excitement of visualising, or not really see, but feeling. That is love.
It's not emotion, as then that's like love between two people. It is that which makes your spirit 'jump' with expectancy (joy), dance with happiness that is truly OUT of this world.

Yip, I'll write everytime I come to realise what love is in a Godly sense.

Be good and keep well,
God bless!
Malcs